Blog posts have been on my heart, but not a reality as of late. There is no specific reason, just life.
Today was a hard day, harder than most. For some reason both of our children were testing the limits and trying to see just exactly how much it took to drive me to the edge.
Our eldest has been waking up between 4:30-5:30am for almost two years. We got a short reprieve this spring when daylight savings time happened, but he's been pulling his tricks again the last few months.
It's no fun. Neither is my attitude about it.
On top of this our youngest is getting the ever-so-lovely molars and has been ultra clingy the last few days. So much so that I dug out our Baby Hawk today just so I could hold him more comfortably. Man I love that thing!
As I wrestled in my spirit, begging God to show me His presence and compassion, I learned that a friend had miscarried...and all was still.
I had once begged for these children, bargaining like Hannah in 1 Samuel. Now all I could do was grumble about the inconvenience they have placed on my day.
God showed me His presence, His sovereign hand in my life, in the small details and big.
A new friend/neighbor joined us for a morning play date and listened as I cried, literally, about Micah's early bird tendencies.
My husband sent me an encouraging text, he's good at that.
A great friend assured me I wasn't a 'crappy mom'.
And my mother sent me this article.
This is really what it's all about, after all.
These days of potty training, sleep training, and heart training are numbered. 
And what's not to love?!?!
1 comment:
Dollie,
Knowing you "long ago" and now from afar, I can FIRMLY agree with your friend that you are not a "crappy" mother at all! Your little boys are blessed to have a godly mom who has a most excellent sense of humor and a wealth of practical wisdom... for now I think they mostly know your godliness, though they would call it "love", and someday will realize the fun of your humor and practical wisdom! I also found the blog article "Motherhood is Application" to be uplifting and timely. Have you heard the author also wrote a book called, "Loving the Little Years"? I'm hoping to add it to my stack of books to read soon. So thankful to watch from afar now and glean insight... wish we were closer!
Post a Comment